Of Lemons and Lemonade

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THE SONG WITHIN

This Is The Time..

Saturday, May 1, 2010 ( 9:23 PM )

It's been an eventful three days.

Full of ups and downs.

You're so set on your ways.

You're so set on your thinking.

When something comes along, you won't listen to anything else.

This is the time for my explanation.

For tonight at least.

1. The reason I ask you for where you are is because I know you don't know where I will be if I say where I am. Simply because, you don't really know your way (specifically) around the city malls.

I do.

And I know where you'll be exiting because there are only two exits for you.

I already know where I want to go, you do not know where we are going.

Did you notice us go in one big circle when we could have met up and gone from there?

2. I know that it's stupid to go without you, and so I won't. That is not the issue, I already know and understand that point, which you can't seem to move past because that's all you can see.

The issue is that it is unfair for you to limit me to not going and you can still go and do as you please.

I know circumstances are such, that it is naturally going to be like that. We cannot help some things.

BUT there are things that you can do so it isn't as unfair.

You yourself know that it is unfair, and yet you do nothing to make it even.

Why? Because it just suits you that way. Because you are assured of what you want, it doesn't matter that the other person is not as assured as you are.

Limitng me to being not allowed to go just because YOU do not feel like it seems okay on its own.

But when you go out with other people for whatever reason, even when you don't feel like it, means that you should be going out with me too, even when you don't feel like it.

You need to take care of them, yes, but don't you need to take care of me too?

You seem to apparently "force" yourself to go out with them for this reason, so why can you not "force" yourself to go out with me too for the same reason?

Just because you have power, doesn't mean you can disregard the opinions of others.

3. Asking me to walk behind you is like talking to a dog.

You do not tell ANYONE to walk behind you simply because you are upset and feeling irritated.

You know why? Because that is telling that person that they are of a lower rank than you and are not as important as you.

You ask me to walk beside you, which is fine.

But I ask you to keep up with me.

No, it's not because you're chasing me but because I need to walk fast because I'm freezing and I don't want to leave you behind.

And yet, you walk even slower the whole way there.

Is it just to spite me? Are you really so hurtful?

And we went over this again, just a few nights ago.

And this time you said you really understood.

You said you understood that things are different from you back-home-small-town thinking.

You said you understood that you needed to change.

Then countless times tonight, you came up with the fact that "that is how you are."

Did we not just go over that?

Did we not spend one sleepless night going over that point itself?

And then you walked away, like you did absolutely nothing and that it was all my fault.

Because I wanted to walk a bit in front of you and tell you to hurry up.

I don't know what is going through your mind.

I don't know how you're feeling now.

But I can guess that you've either:

a) gone out to drink with your friends

b) stayed at home and sulked or slept

c) just gone to some other girl.

Where are the hopes and dreams when you've got reality.