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"When life gives you lemons, make lemonade."

SARAH ANN LEE SUI EN
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16 April 1992
Murdoch University
Blaw and BComm

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THE SONG WITHIN

It's Time to Go Back.

Saturday, May 29, 2010 ( 3:36 AM )

Why do I do it to myself?

As soon as I talk about everything going smoothly, something happens to disrupt that.

I should have learnt that by now.

This time is different from the last 1yr++, I think.

The after effects are different.

I think the conversation with Suds a couple nights ago really made a difference.

That conversation really made me think.

And, I suppose, view things differently.

To be honest, I cannot recall the majority of the exact words said but something in that conversation changed my way of thinking and feeling.

It's not that the things that happen - the things that I see, the things that I hear - hurt or feel any different or less painful, but rather that I can see beyond that moment.

One of the things that I do remember from that conversation is that;

When did I start to settle for less than I wanted?
Oh, not wanted in a superficial sense - rather valued in a person in general.

In a relationship in general.

What happened to the old me?

I don't know when I stopped being that person and became someone else.

It used to be a whirlwind, when did it become a storm?

It's not habit, it's something more than that.

But I can't keep convincing myself that the its absence doesn't matter.

The cracks are starting to show.

You give me your excuses, but that's all they are - excuses.

Excuses don't make up for what has happened and what will happen.

When did I become so easy to buy off?

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i want the lime green one

Nope. No tag board for you.

Time to break free

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